a special moment!

Chicks??? Naaa, Im done. No, im not going to the other side. Im just done with the effort, the time, all of it. now, I will have to replace this part of the content that I attempt to bring to the show, as well as this part of my life, with something else. As you know, a very big part of my life and the things that I share on air and in my blog has been “my pursuit of relationship happiness.” But I will find something, trust me. Maybe bowling! What has happened to make me feel this strongly? Nothing really. Just tired of the headache and frustration of it all and I am going to focus my energy somewhere else. And I’ll tell ya. Its pretty liberating when you decide to adjust your settings and head another direction.

today, i witnessed love. shanon and i went to tell a kidd’s kid family to learn their story. it was a mom, dad and 2 kids. only the youngest was at home but actually both of their kids were sick. one however, is way sicker than the other. in fact, she is terminal. she is 7 years old and to look at her, the first thing that strikes you is how delicate she appears. her name is kendall. she has cystic fibrosis. the parents have known each other since 6th grade and have dated since high school. the dad is a tall, rather stocky guy. as i walked in the house, nascar was on the tv. the mom walked in a few minutes after we got there. one of my first questions to him was “please tell me about your daughters condition. instantly he started to cry. the love that he has for his little girl was so pure and genuine. he also told me about the job that he took as a contractor in iraq so that he could make a little more money to better care for his family. the mom told
me of her dreams as well. while she was growing up, she dreamed of being a nurse. never dreaming that the patients she would later be caring for would be her own daughters. they told me how they have NEVER been on a family vacation. NEVER! and here i am going to mexico every 2 months to fulfill some stupid dream i have had to own a bar and it made my dream sound so freakin stupid. all they want is for their daughter to make it thru another day. they told me of their typical day which included feeding tubes, medicines, breathing treatments and more.
i cant help but wonder why this family??? why this little girl???
i ended the visit by telling them that they were going to disneyworld and the floodgates opened up like Niagra falls. daddy hugged daughter for maybe 5 straight minutes. i felt so lucky to be able to witness this display of love. thinking back, i almost feel mad at myself for not hugging my own kids like that.